Where to, God?


Photography by Madi Flournoy Henderson 

Top: Amelia Styles || Similar style: here & here || Shorts: Nordstrom || Shoes: Converse

For the last thirty-one days I have spent more time in the word of God than ever before in my entire life. All thanks to Megan Miller, who had it on her heart to ask a simple question on her insta story one day, “Do you want to read the bible with me?”. And with that question brought a response of 208 people tapping “Yes” on the poll. One little question from her is all it took to totally change my relationship with God for the better.

Each day in this bible journey there is a reading from the old testament, new testament, psalms and proverbs. Then you pick one thing to pray over for the entire month. I picked three. Because I’m such an overachieving Christian. No, that’s not the real reason. I said a prayer for my husband, my daughter, and myself. The prayer for myself was this blog. I knew the second that Megan asked us to join in that I was going to take the next thirty-one days and pray “Lord what am I to do about this blog.”

God has been wrestling with my heart for a while. I mean really tugging and pulling at it. Almost to the point of frustration. I feel like I’m at the starting line, watching everyone take off in the right direction. While I’m standing there confused as to which foot I should put before the other to even began to walk. I have the drive. I have the passion. I know I am supposed to do something. 

I knew through the process that I didn't want to give up on this blog completely. I wasn't hearing that it was time to close the door. But I also wasn't hearing that it was time to reopen it either. 

With five days left in this study I had made peace with the fact that I might be waiting for a while. God might not answer my question in the thirty-one days I had planned for Him to do so. He is not on my timetable. I am on His. A truth I am forever having to remind myself of. 

And it wasn't until the last day of the study and the very last verse that I got my answer. 

Proverbs 3:5-6 - "Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not rely on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him and He will make your paths straight." 

This has been my life verse since high school. The one I have always resorted back to in every type of life event. And it was God's way of answering this prayer. Great is His faithfulness. 

I am still waiting for exactly what I am supposed to do with this answer. I know now to keep writing. The blog, the book, it all still needs to happen. I'll continue to write about all the things - just maybe a tad more about Jesus, and a tad less about fashion. 

I don’t know where you are at. Maybe the path is clear, the directions are laid out and you are off on your way. Or maybe you are sitting in the waiting room, listening for your name to be called. But I do know that whatever path you are on, or trying to discover, you can’t step away from Him. Stay in the word. Stay in the truth. Know that God is the one pulling your hand in the right direction while also the one holding it still as you continue to figure it out.

And if you feel Him telling you to step out of your comfort zone. Do it. You never know what might happen. 

“The Lord is near. Don’t worry about anything, but in everything, through prayer and petition with thanksgiving, present your request to God.”       – Philippians 4:5-6